I listened to nothing but Bob Dylan and played with water colors until sun-up.

Nicholas is in CA i'm so jealous. He was just at Mission Beach. Which is a totally sucky touristy beach, but a beach nonetheless. I miss him. I don't have a phone at the moment. and our roomies and I all have different schedules, so i can't really borrow a phone to say "hello, i love you". he knows i do, i guess that counts.



I am currently on a two week break from alcohol. day 4. not going strong. it IS challenging.

There is always some kind of fear looming in my heart because of the things i've done. Sometimes I don't think I will ever find my own way and I am just mimicking. All the time.

The past has gotten the worst of me and it feels good to have that part out.

I bet there is a Japanese T out there somewhere that says something like "LIFE! YOU MUST RIDE THAT FUCKING ROLLER COASTER" i want that.

you can't tell so much here. but my hair was ridiculously asymmetrical. when phoenix was...

**i found a usb card with lots of old photos. Not so old. 05 old....

I kinda like this whole Blogging thing.

I've been tumbling too. I Like It!





Anywayyyys. so, damn. i Have to pay so much to live in my house this month. ha. my mom isn't going to give me the $150 that i really really need to live even sort of comfortably this next two weeks. Suppose i'll have to sell stuff. i need to get rid of clothes anyway. I have wayy too much. I'm going to Flagstaff in a few weeks. Hooray. Finally!!!





Also. We are moving rooms in like 7 days..a,jlkejtoiuw! i could NOT be happier. and thats a good way to get rid stuff i'm going to post some before and after shots of what it looked like when SARA occupied it...and what i will do with it. IcanNotwait. I should have a fuggin' decorating show.

I started a post-it wall. It's looking fantastic so far. I've only got one line going...but its started and thats what matters. I am just going crazy with ideas. ha! Photos once its grows!

Volley Ball Tournament Ages 12-18

These girls are getting so fucked. they're walking around in tiny shorts with huge bags of ice on their knees in between games. I don't understand. But i guess sports have always been, so i won't judge and say its some thing for tools and rich people...even though it KIND of is. but anyway anyway.

The girls walked out of the lobby and the moms were still behind chatting, so i ask "whats happened to all their knees?" They all just stared at me like a freak for talking to them...which happens often and i hate...is that really a thing? "don't talk to the help" fuck. So yeah, one of them speaks up " a lot of them just have had injuries that cause long term irritation sometimes, they act up." All i could say was "wow, that sucks, some of them were walking like my grandpa did! that must be painful!" They just scoffed and went back to chatting.

Gross.

I stayed up until five this morning watching the second disc of the first season of the O.C. It's Totally amazing how much these women talking in the lobby right now are like those stupid moms on that show.

Arizona

It is Glorious here.

This is just a snapshot of the sky somewhere in between here and Prescott.

I wonder what kind of dinosaurs lived in desert lands. I'll look that up and get back to you.

7:07

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