I listened to nothing but Bob Dylan and played with water colors until sun-up.

Nicholas is in CA i'm so jealous. He was just at Mission Beach. Which is a totally sucky touristy beach, but a beach nonetheless. I miss him. I don't have a phone at the moment. and our roomies and I all have different schedules, so i can't really borrow a phone to say "hello, i love you". he knows i do, i guess that counts.



I am currently on a two week break from alcohol. day 4. not going strong. it IS challenging.

There is always some kind of fear looming in my heart because of the things i've done. Sometimes I don't think I will ever find my own way and I am just mimicking. All the time.

The past has gotten the worst of me and it feels good to have that part out.

I bet there is a Japanese T out there somewhere that says something like "LIFE! YOU MUST RIDE THAT FUCKING ROLLER COASTER" i want that.

you can't tell so much here. but my hair was ridiculously asymmetrical. when phoenix was...

**i found a usb card with lots of old photos. Not so old. 05 old....