I don't know what to call it.

Life seems to be throwing me a bunch of shitty curve balls. I do it to myself. I push people away and don't reach for them until their backs are already turned. If this relationship ends up in the fail pail I think i'm done with all the nonsense partnership for a long time. I've spent the majority of my early 20's trying to make things work instead of making things happen. Now is that time and there are no more possible excuses for me to make for myself. Excuses Suck.

I'm sick of not getting all these ideas out, i'm sick of being afraid to try, and mostly i'm sick of constantly living in the fear of failure. God damnit i'm already failing by sitting around doing nothing all the time.